Contágio

Contagiei-te,
Deixaste-te contagiar,
Abraçaste a minha doença sem restrições,
Sem pedir explicações,
Sem saberes os efeitos secundários.
Aceitaste-me e à minha doença
Sem lutar.

Fizeste-me acreditar na cura,
Quiseste-me curar
Abraçando a minha loucura,
Mas não me curaste...
Agravaste a minha situação
E adoeceste por opção.

A paixão é loucura
E a loucura não tem razão!

Este pequeno poema é pura ficção, não contagiei ninguém nos últimos tempos, ninguém se deixou contagiar e a minha doença é a mesmo a loucura!

Relationships

They are never easy...
The only way for them to work out in a short/medium-term is having a non-relationship relationship ( a non-relationship relationship consists in: you meet, you spend some time together doing whatever and then each one goes on with it's life... no strings attached, no commitment)

I've had some non-relationships relationships in the past, mostly with married people (married people are the best, they always bring you presents, take you to good restaurants, drive family cars (which can be used to satisfy your car fetiches) and are always afraid to say that thing that may cost them the extra-marital sex!

Real relationships are very hard to handle, you have to give a lot of yourself ... i don't think i'm ready for a full-time relationship, though i'd like to have one (eventually) but i think that right now a non-relationship relationship would be perfect for me ...

Anyone interested?

Let me tell you about my qualities:

1. I can make your life a living hell
2. I hate cleaning (so you have to do all the cleanings)
3. I don't like being said: NO!
4. I always wake up singing (which can cause you nausea in long term exposure)
5. I like hompin' on the bed
6. I like to listen to heavy-metal very loud

If this doens't make you want me ... i don't know wht it does!

... meduuuuuu!

"De que tens medo?", perguntaste-me e eu não respondi. Não respondi porque tenho medo de responder, porque tenho medo da resposta, porque tenho medo de ti, porque tenho medo de mim!

Tenho medo, sou medricas, ando escondido escondendo as minhas respostas e os meus desejos, as minhas emoções. Reprimindo e abstraindo-me de certas sensações...

"Este sou eu!", nunca o disse, nunca o mostrei e talvez já nem saiba quem sou eu... perdi a minha identidade no meio de tanto finge-finge e esconde-esconde.

Quem sou eu e porqeu é que tenho medo?

(Dúvidas existênciais... buh! Estou aqui estou numa caverna escura com um balde cheio de água e outro cheio de ar, a tentar afogar um crucifixo de madeira para me tornar num Super-Homem...)

Alguém me dá um tiro?

Perfection

Strangely as it may seem, no one ever said i was perfect... ok no one except for myself!

But still i don't see myself as perfect, i have so many flaws. And i don't seek perfection, i don't quite understand what's with the whole search for PERFECTION, perfection is but a word, is but an idea ...
Everybody's looking for the perfect match, the perfect thing to say, the perfect house in the perfect neighbourhood, the perfect toys and gizmos ... perfect this .|. !!

I am not perfect nor i wish to be!

When we were but caveman there was no such thing as perfection, perfect would be staying alive throughout the day, feeding, breeding and waking up the next day (preferebly in the cave and not inside a sabretooth's belly).
But when we started to gain some intelect we begun to neglect simple things and started to embrace more complicated puzzles, like the "why are we here?" questions. I never saw a lion questioning his reason for being alive, it's alive and it does whatever it takes to continue its survival ...

But them "you" question: would you like to be an animal with no intelect? What you have is a gift, why throw it away?

... I don't know if i'd like to be an unintelectual animal, but there are so many dumb people on earth and they all seem very happy. They only become unhappy when they come realize they're aren't "as intelligent as...", so i think i'd like to be dumb... I never saw a dumb person die of a brain tumor, that's what you get when you think too much, a big cancer in your brain!

So i think i'll stop thinking...

The next time you see me i'll be drooling!

Bits and Pieces (part 2)

Okidoki, heres goes the second part of "bits and pieces" (bits and pieces by parts .... strangly amusing)

Though there is still a lot more to write about "Love..." (not all good things) i won't keep on "singing" about it, so without further adue:

6. YOUR FIRST THOUGHT WHEN YOU WAKE UP

"The hills are alive with the sound of music!!!"
(Julie Andrews - The Sound Of Music) yep ... i always wake up happy!

7. YOUR LAST THOUGHT (before closing your eyes to sleep)

"Something has left my life
And I don't know where it went to..."
(The Cranberries - Empty) yep ... happiness seems to fade throughout the day!

8. THE GLASS IS HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY?
(this is a tricky one!)

"Climbing
Building us up
Tearing me down
Lifted back up we are climbing
All of this time
Drifting right back to the ground"
(Dredg - Yatahaze)


This is the end ... There were more questions, but they are SO BORING... so this post ends here!

Bits and Pieces

I got the idea to this post from a chain-mail ... i hate chain-mails and ALWAYS brake the chain, still i breathe and never a piano fell on my head... so you see there's no need to be afraid to brake the chain!

But still, this email gave me the idea to post this post (eheh "post this post" is kinda funny), the idea is to answer some questions with bits and pieces of songs.

Let's start shall we?

1. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

"But I won't cry for yesterday,
there's an ordinary world,
Somehow I have to find.
And as I try to make my way,
to the ordinary world...
I will learn to survive"
(Duran Duran - Ordinary World)

"The more I think, the less I do
when I'm able to talk
I'm queen of my world
I let it rain on my skin
I don't ask myself why
I don't ask myself why"
(Elisa - Rock Your Soul)

2. HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THE WORLD?

"The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get, for my pain
Betrayed desires..."
(Smashing Pumpkins - Bullet With Butterfly Wings)

3. DESCRIBE YOURSELF

"Babble, babble, bitch, bitch
Rebel, rebel, party, party
Sex, sex, sex and don't forget the violence
Blah, blah, blah, got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely
Stick your stupid slogan in
Everybody sing along
Everything has been said before
There's nothing left to say anymore
When it's all the same
You can ask for it by name"
(mARYLIN mANSON - New Shit)

"But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here."
(RadioHead - Creep)

"If you see me you’ll be crossing the street
Or kick me and then leave me to bleed
If looks could kill wouldn’t need all the pills
But I take what it needs to be easy
we're the blacksheep now"
(Sneaker Pimps - Black Sheep)

4. DESCRIBE YOUR BEST FRIEND

"You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down, no, no
Cause you are beautiful in every single way
Yes words can't bring you down. Oh, no"
(Christina Aguilera - Beautiful)

"YOU BRAKE MY HEART
AND SET ME ON FIRE (SET ME)
LOUDER THAN LOVE!"
(Icon & The Black Roses - Set Me On Fire) :-Þ

"I turn to you
Like a flower leaning toward the sun
I turn to you
Cause your the only one
Who can turn me around
When I'm upside down
I turn to you"
(Mel C - I Turn To You)

"And I thank you
For bringing me here
For showing me home
For singing these tears
Finally I've found that I
Belong here"
(Depeche Mode - Home)

5. Love ...

"It’s the sweetest emptiness of love
A bitter poison is everything that I’ve become
And every single tear I owned has run dry on this face
Now that you are gone"
(Icon & The Black Roses - The Sweetest Emptiness Of Love)

"Let me wake up in your arms
Hear you say it's not alright
Let me be so dead and gone
So far away from life
Close my eyes
Hold me tight
And bury me deep inside your heart
All I ever wanted was you, my love
You... all I ever wanted is you, my love
You're all I ever wanted, just you!"
(HIM - Bury Me Deep Inside Your Heart)

"This all you kept inside
Once you gave it all
Sorrow and despair
Took me where I belong
She was all I create
She was all I craved
Sorrow and despair
Made me feel this way"
(Charon - Sorrowsong)

"I've tried and I've tried to forget about you
Just little lies for myself
And you were innocent and true as can be
And now you are not here with me"
(Elisa - Yashal)

"How stupid could i be
A simpleton can see
That you're not good for me
But you're the only one i see"
(Sarah McLachlan - Stupid)

"...And I miss you
Like the deserts miss the rain"
(Everything But The Girl - Missing)

"For what it's worth I like you
and what is worse I really do
things have been worse
and we had fun fun fun'til I said I love you
and what is worse I really do!"
(The Cardigans - For What It's Worth)


I think it's good enough for now ... i'm beginning to get depressed (lolol)
I'll continue the in the next post!

My eye (or just look at my piercing)

My eye (or just look at my piercing)

Espero

Espero...
E enquanto espero, desespero;
Desespero e perco o controlo...

Olho para o relógio,
Sinto as mãos a tremer,
Olho em redor e não me encontro,
Sinto que me estou a perder,
E, entretanto espero...

Espero mais um minuto,
O cigarro a desaparecer...
Conto cada segundo
Que alimente este sofrer.

E enquanto espero, desespero
Por nada poder fazer
A não ser ficar à espera
Do que possa acontecer.

Este poema é dedicado a todos os que não têm nada para fazer a não ser ficar à espera que alguma coisa aconteça... (gente como eu ... LOL)

Red As Pain

Now that i have taken some time out of my other leisure activities, i'll present you another piece of MARVELLOUS poetry ( LOL)

This one was to be a song... but it didn't workout that way :-Þ

Red as Pain

Cruel,
You brought me pain
While i offered unconditional love.
Broke my heart in tiny pieces
With indifference and scarn.

Overwhelmed by your poisonous kiss,
I believed your heart was made of gold.
Now, as the light shades from my eyes
I start to bleed and realize,

The love i got from you
Is as red as pain,
And the salty tears spilling from my eyes
Are the only thing you crave!

Cruel,
You dyed my heart in tones of lust,
Gained my confidence and trust
Just to feed me with your pain.

And as the sighs slide through my mouth,
My body quivers and torches inside!

Traz A Luz

~Traz a luz~

Traz a luz
E apaga a escuridão
Que assola o meu coração.

Apaga as velas,
Apaga as estrelas,
Deixa os teus olhos iluminar
Pois são mais belos que elas.

Apaga o sonho e a fantasia,
Apaga o choro e a melancolia,
Apaga tudo e...
Traz a luz!

Ask For Answers

This is a Placebo song, it can be found on their second album "Without You I'm Nothing"

Ask for answers

Time to pass you to the test
Hanging on my lover's breath
Always coming second best
Pictures of my lover's chest

Get through
This night
There are no second chances

This time
I might
To ask the sea for answers

Always falling to the floor
Softer than it was before.
Dog boy, media whore
It's who the hell you take me for.

Give up
This fight
There are no second chances

This time
I might
To ask the sea for answers

These bonds are shackle free
Wrapped in lust and lunacy
Tiny touch of jealousy
These bonds are shackle free

Get through
This night
There are no second chances

This time
I might
To ask the sea for answers

These bonds are shackle free
These bonds are shackle free
These bonds are shackle free

Get through
This
There are no second chances

This time, this
To ask the sea for answers

Love Letter

Something inside me has died, it stinks and it ricks and it's dead...
I'm mourning now, crying now, yearning now... it's dead...
I wrap my arms around my body and lean my head on my right shoulder. There's nothing more i can do but to let it go deeper, to bury it deeper.

Something inside me has died and i can't let go.
Still i'm hanging on a thread, pushing hard the thread, wishing it to be lies...
But no, something inside has died and i died within.

It's so easy to pretend, to fake a sudden smile, to have all the answers even if they are wrong.
It's too easy to repent, to regret and to hide.
But it's not easy when you cry, when you bleed, when you tear your heart out and hold it in your hand and it still beats, it still pounds...

Something inside me has died and it stinks and it ricks and it makes me cry.

I'm dead, i died, doesn't it make you cry?

Sentado Nesta Cadeira

Aqui, sentado nesta cadeira
Sinto o gosto dos teus lábios nos meus,
Encontro o ponto onde os mares se tornam os céus,
Imaginando que os teus dedos fossem os meus.

Aqui, sentado nesta cadeira,
Onde os segundos parecem eternidades,
Onde as fantasias se tornam realidade,
A imaginação preenche o vazio...

E todas as memórias que tenho
De todas as palvras que dissémos,
De todos os gestos que fizémos,
Do mais estranho ao mais ingénuo
Revivo aqui nesta cadeira
Onde os dias se tornam segundos,
Os segundos em eternidade...
...Eterna a saudade.

Fazes Parte De Mim

FAZES PARTE DE MIM

Escondida na minha mente
Está a lembrança
Das palavras que me disseste,
Dos Sorrisos que fizeste,
Dos carinhos que me deste...

Impregnado no meu corpo
O teu cheiro,
Para sempre marcado
O sabor do desejo,
O amor no meu corpo, tatuado.

Nunca pensei que fosse assim,
Que deixasse marcas tão profundas,
Mas tu fazes parte de mim
Como do mar as ondas,

Como do céu as estrelas,
Tu fazes parte de mim...
Sem ti não sou um todo,
Sou metade sem ti.

No Title

Too sad the tears I cry,

Sadness has taken over

Of my thoughts, of my memories and soul,

I just cannot control it.

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Just let it slide,

Just let it slip.

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The further I fall

The deeper I sink,

It's no use to struggle

As the curtain falls down,

Down...

Down...

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...And the abyss is smiling

As I slide down,

Down...

Deeper...

3:46 AM

There's nothing left for me to do, i'm sitting here smoking a cigarrete and watching my fingers drum the keybord, i make no effort to think in what i'm writting. I'm writting period!

Time to let my mind go wild ... but the only wild thing over here isn't my mind, there must be a flea festing in my underwear... let me scratch ... hum ... it feels good, i think i'll leave this hand here and the other writting...

You should be dancin' yeah! fuckin' Bee Gees' song in my head ... i shouldn't be dancing, i should be hompin' on someones bed, but nooooo, i'm sitting down here but hey you can't see me, isn't it grand to find a song for each word you say or think? (the last one was from Lene Marlin)

I think i type faster with only one hand (the other one is getting warm and pretty comfortable, i'd like to be pretty comfortable right now, but noooo, li'l ol' me gotta work!)

Oh fuck! There's nothing left to do but to masturbate my mind thinking about white fluffy clouds and showers of pure joy ... (no, not golden showers, that's too kinky for me)

I cannot think ...
I cannot keep my eyes open ...
I cannot close my eyes ...
I gotta take my hand outta my trousers, things are getting (literally) out of hand!

*Time to get another cigarrete and die slowly*

Falando de amor ...

Agora é só em português porque eu ainda n dormi e não tou com muita pachorra para escrever em inglês, e, mesmo ke escrevesse isto em inglês o que vem a seguir é em português e akeles ke n falam a lingua de Camões teriam de usar um tradutor --- assim usam um para istu tb!
Aki vai:

ps: Isto é uma coisinha que eu estava a pensar no comboio a caminho de casa e que me fez rir e sorrir e gargalhar mesmo, deixando as pessoas à minha beira um pouco desconfortáveis e a afastarem-se de mim pouco a pouco ... de benfica à reboleira eu tinha uma carruagem só para mim! Por isso se quiserem afastar as pessoas basta pensarem nisto:

O amor anal
não tem nada de mal
vamos brincar aos médicos
e fazer o toque rectal!

--- preciso de dormir!
adeus e até amanhã!

Sem Titulo

Sem Titulo

As escolhas que fiz,
Os pontapés que dei,
Tudo o que quis
E que nunca terei...

As palavras que disse,
As que nunca direi,
Estarão certas ou erradas
Ou nunca o saberei?

Sigo em frente,
Páro...
Olho para trás...

Não sei porque páro,
Não sei porque espero,
Não sei e sigo em frente.

Corro como se me perseguissem,
Escondo-me como se me vissem,
Corro, escondo-me, páro...
E sigo em frente!

Oh Goth!

Oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth (free speeding zone) oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth (breathe) oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth (breathe again) oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth oh goth ................................................................................................................................................................................................... though i loved it ............................................................................................................................................................................. GOTTA DO IT AGAIN!

I'm Left Here

OKIDOKI, this one goes to you (yeah you who said: post something beautiful), though this is not beautiful, it's from my soul (and my overtime working pea)

I'M LEFT HERE

I'm left here
Imagining how it could feel
Your fingers
Slowly slidding down my skin,
Wondering
When will your serpent crawl on my thighs
And make be burn in holywater

I'm left here
Waiting, wanting your embrace.
Take control of my emotions.
Leave me here surrounded by your breath.
Make me burn in holywater

You make me feel so high,
Make me dance in velvet skies,
Crown me king oh for one night
And a whore for a lifetime.

I'm left here,
Surrounded here by the night,
By the silence of the stars,
By the silence of my voice,
By the silence of my soul,
By your silence...
By my fault!

For You!

This one is dedicated to only one person: SORRY!

ELISA - Almeno Tu Nell'Universo

Sai, la gente e' strana

Prima si odia e poi si ama

Cambia idea improvvisamente

Prima la verità, poi mentiranno senza serieta'

Come fosse niente



Sai, la gente matta

Forse troppo insoddisfatta

Segue il mondo ciecamente

Quando la moda cambia

Lei pure cambia

Continuamente, scioccamente



Tu, tu che sei diverso

Almeno tu nell'Universo

Un punto sei che non ruota mai intorno a me

Un sole che splende per me soltanto

Come un diamante in mezzo al cuore

Tu...



Sai, la gente è sola

Come può lei si consola

Non far si che la mia mente

Si perda in congetture, in paure

Inutilmente e poi per niente



Tu, tu che sei diverso

Almeno tu nell'Universo

Un punto sei che non ruota mai intorno a me

Un sole che splende per me soltanto

Come un diamante in mezzo al cuore



Tu, tu che sei diverso

Almeno tu nell'universo

Non cambierai

Dimmi che per sempre sarai sincero

E che mi amerai davvero di piu' di piu' di piu'



Di piu'

(you can find this song on Elisa's album: Lotus (2003, Sugar Music)

Strange little f(r)iction

Okidoki ... i've already trancribbed lyrics, wrote a poem and made peace with myself, now it's time to let my mind go free and wild, today i'll post one of my "texts of dispair" (-texts of dispair- is but a scrap book i've been writing ever since 6th grade when i had to make - really make, by joining, folding and sewing paper - a book)

here goes one of my "texts of dispair"

Custa chegar a casa e saber que não lá estás, que de ti só sobraram as sombras nas paredes e o eco da tua voz, no ar poeirento, do vazio.
Desgosta-me saber que fui motivo da tua infelicidade e de todas as lágrimas que choraste, das que não choraste, e, de todas as vezes que a morte ansiaste.
Peço perdão por não ser o príncipe da Cinderella, ou, por apenas não te poder dar tudo aquilo que necessitas. Mas isto é o que sou, o que sempre fui, o que sempre conheceste...

Lá estou eu, outra vez, a falar com as paredes; como se delas conseguisse arrancar algumas respostas, por entre os murros que lhes dou e os hematomas que me ofereço...

English version:

It's hard to get home and knowing you're not there, that, of you, there's only the shadows on the walls and the ecchoes of your voice, in the powdery-dusty air, of the empty.
It disgusts me to know i was the reason for unhappiness and of all the tears you've cried, of all the tears you haven't shed, and, of all the times for death you wished.
I appologize, for not being Cinderella's prince, or, for only not to be able to give you all the things you've ever needed. But this is what i am, what i always have been, what you've always known...

Here i go again, talking to the walls, as if from them i could get a hold on some asnwers in the midst of the punches i blow at them and the bruises i offer myself...

Poetry time

Today i bring you (those of you who actually read this *s*h*i*t*) a poem ... yeah, i write poems, ain't i tha best? (NOT!!!)

So without further adue:

UM SIMPLES TOQUE DE VELUDO

Na penugem do teu peito

Onde repouso a cabeça,

Onde perco a cabeça,

Onde peço que o mundo desapareça

E que este instante dure

Por uma eternidade,

Repouso...

Na ponta dos teus dedos,

Onde engulo os meus medos,

Onde me fazes flutuar

Acima do mundo,

Muito acima do ar,

Acima do éter

Fazes-me desaparecer...

Desapareço no vácuo,

No vazio do espaço,

No teu abraço,

No teu corpo nú,

Onde nos tornamos num,

Num eclipse!

...E sentir as tuas mãos de veludo

Percorrerem o meu cosmos,

A desnudarem tudo,

A descobrirem cada milímetro

De cada centímetro

Do invólucro que me guarda a alma,

Que me guarda o espírito,

Que me guarda da tristeza e da dor.

Tu abres-me...

Lês-me com o teu toque de veludo.

Transformas-me,

Tomas-me,

E nunca mais serei o mesmo.

Quem sou eu agora?

Uma extensão de ti?

Um tu independente?

Não...

Agora sou uma mariposa,

Deste-me asas e ensinaste-me a voar,

Deste-me cor e fizeste-me brilhar,

Deste-me vida e deixaste-me crescer,

Deste-me tudo

Com um simples toque de veludo!

It's over ...

For those of you who don't understand potuguese all i have to say is: ONLINE TRANSLATIONS!!

A TRIP DOWN ON MEMORY LANE

I was here thinking about the all the goods time i have passed alongside with the good people i've met on my long journey ... refresh the long - short journey (i'm ONLY 27) - when i stumbled on a song.

This song is (though as stoopid as it can be) means a lot to me (and to someone else, i believe)

It's called "i'm in heaven" and it's by ATC

Here are the lyrics:

ATC - I'm In Heaven

im in heaven when you kiss me

show me how you miss me

Take me with you back to Wonderland

im in heaven when you kiss me

show me how you miss me

Take me with you back to Wonderland



You capture me with a stare

I'll follow you anywhere

You lead me into temptation

I guess you need to enjoy

I'm like a kid with a toy

I'm losing my concentration

One kiss from you and I'm on fire

Your touch is all I desire

One look and you take me higher

You know I couldn't resist

Ya I miss...every time I'm with you

Every time that we kiss



CHORUS:

I'm in heaven when you kiss

Heaven when you kiss me

You were sent to me from Wonderland

I'm in heaven when you kiss

Heaven when you kiss me

You were sent to me from Wonderland

I go crazy when you kiss me

Show me how you miss me

Take me with you back to Wonderland

You know I couldn't resist

Ya I miss... every time I'm with you

Everytime that we kiss



I dream of you every night

Feels like I'm losing my mind

The feelin's just getting stronger (ger, ger, ger, ger)

My head is spinnin' around

You play with me but I'm bound

I can't resist any longer



One kiss from you and I'm on fire

Your touch is all I desire

One look and you take me higher

You know I couldn't resist

Ya I miss...every time I'm with you

Every time that we kiss



CHORUS:

I'm in heaven when you kiss

Heaven when you kiss me

You were sent to me from Wonderland

I'm in heaven when you kiss

Heaven when you kiss me

You were sent to me from Wonderland

I go crazy when you kiss me

Show me how you miss me

Take me with you back to Wonderland

You know I couldn't resist

Ya I miss... every time I'm with you

Everytime that we kiss



You know that I'm hypnotized

Each time I look in your eyes

You know I couldn't disguise

And I couldn't resist everytime that we kiss



CHORUS:

(I'm in)I'm in heaven when you kiss me

Heaven when you kiss me

You were sent to me from Wonderland

Ooh it's heaven when you kiss me

Heaven when you kiss me

You were sent to me from Wonderland

I go crazy when you kiss me

Baby don't resist me

Take me with you back to Wonderland

You know I that I'm hypnotized... by your eyes

And I just can't resist

Everytime that we kiss



You know I that I'm hypnotized... by your eyes

And I just can't resist

Everytime that we kiss (kiss, kiss, kiss)

Luv u BABE (yeah i know you don't like when i call you babe!!!)

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PROTECTION

Hellu
It's me again (who else?)

These past few week have been hectic, i've been dealing with some major conflicting emotions. I thought i was kinda lost, silently screaming, untill i met a friend of mine who told me this:

"God, Pi! You look like some truck ran over your face!
I know you must be having some problems coz i can see it in the way you're acting, but remember, don't let those emotions drag you down. You have to pull yourself up, no one is going to do that for you, coz you know everybody's always looking after their bellybutton to care for yours...

"I know it's easy for me to say this, since i'm not the one that was hit and i'm not the one whose head is running like a goat with mad cow's disease, but you know, i've been through that before, i know what is like to feel the weight of the world in my shoulders ...

"... You know, sometimes we get close to other people in search of something we lack, that other person might seem to have exactly what you need, so you are drawn to him. But that doesn't mean he is the right person for you.

"When we fell like we love somebody, we lay down our guard, we let others see all our frailty, but that what you feel isn't love! Love doesn't manifests itself that way, Love doesn't come with sparks, that's PASSION!

Love is something you build with the other person, it's something you need and the other gives, expecting nothing except for you to give something he needs too.


"Now you have to search for what you need, ask yourself: WHAT DO I NEED??
And find if that other person can give it to you, or if he's interested in offering you what you need ...

"And then after you find the answer to that question, ask yourself: WHAT DOES THE OTHER NEED?
Can you answer that?
..."

NO! I do not know what the other needs ...

My second post (... and only a few hours have passed)

I'm going to "talk" about a song, a song i like a lot, it's called "Empty" and it's by a band called "The Cranberries"

I think this song describes a bit the way i'm felling right now, it's a sentiment of loss, like there's a void inside me and as hard as i try to fill it up, it always comes back...

Let's not spill anymore ink writting nonsences, here come the lyrics:

The Cranberries - Empty

Something has left my life

And i dont know where it went to

somebody caused me strife

and its not what i was seeking



didnt you see me didnt you hear me

didnt you see me standing there



why did you turn out the lights

did you know that i was sleeping



say a prayer for me

help me to feel the strength i did

my identity has it been taken

is my heart breaking on me



cos my plans they fell through my hands

they fell through my hands on me

all my dreams it suddenly seems it suddenly seems

empty

ESTOU BLOGGADU!!! (I'M BLOGGED!!)

I just create myself a blog yay!!

if you're looking for some deep thoughts or insightful opinions about anything ... FORGET IT!!

There will be nothing here except me talking about me ... this is ALL ABOUT ME!!!

This is just the forst post, tomorrow i'll post another, right now daddy's calling me to have dinner (and i'm a hungry bastard)!